27th July 2012

The ignoring thing hasn’t got any better. I’ve done something but I’m not going to write it in here incase someone reads it. I’m not proud but it’s a way to escape I suppose. I have also been trying to write a book. I went to the cinema to watch Batman the other day with some of the family including Emily. I know this sounds selfish but I am so jealous of how everyone loves her. I feel like my family are the only people who like me so when they are really close to someone else it hurts. I also went to the beach and got blotchy sunburn. When I went there, there were these boys there too because Sarah had invited them and they were horrible to me and then guess what. Sarah invites everyone out again! I feel like people are perposley (see I can’t even spell, I’m so pissed! URGH!) pushing me away.

4th July 2012 22:05

Got so much going on soon. Emily coming down, meal with the family, getting my haircut, trying out my bridesmaid dress, having my teeth out. It’s all happening soon. Charlotte’s got another boyfriend. He’s called Leon and he’s really nice. I’m really happy for her. Wish someone liked me :(. Esther’s going to see Conor Maynard and I’m a bit pissed as I asked her if she wanted to go with me but we had no transport. But now she does and she didn’t even ask me. She asked Rebecca but she couldn’t so Eve’s going. I know that sounds horrible of me but I really wanted to go. Rebecca and Esther are going to see Ed Sheeran, Char and Est went to T4 on the beach, Char’s going paintballing, Georgia’s going JLS and Sarah’s going to see Justin Bieber. I did get invited to see JB but I don’t think my mum would pay the £60 for it. I’M NOT GOING ANYWHERE AND I WANT TO CRY. Can people not see hoe much I’m being cut out. Eve doesn’t even like Conor Maynard that much. URGH! Rant over. Think I’m having the teeth out at the dentist. No words to describe how scared I am.