31st January 2012 15:59

Ultrasound didn’t happen, have to have it done at a later date. I give up. I have no clue how I feel anymore. I love Lewis but when I see Sam and Emma together my heart breaks. Everyone has a boyfriend except me. Rebecca had James, Esther has Brandon, Georgia Sam, Courtney has someone and Emma has Sam. I’m so miserable. Still no braces.

Note: This began a long, in fact still going (at least as of January 2016) time of moping and feeling like shit because I don’t have a boyfriend. Honestly, I need to learn to be happy alone but it’s very difficult to do that when your friends are all in relationships!!


19th January 2012 22:06

Things aren’t going well with Lewis. Rebecca has a boyfriend! They don’t even talk. Esther has become her best friend. I have my ultrasound scan tomorrow so scared. I have to show another stranger my boobs but this time they get to be prodded too. Joy upon joy! Will this hell never end?

Note: I had to have the ultrasound done to check my heart for defects because they found a murmur in my heart. Turns out it’s innocent and fine but having the ultrasound done was really embarrassing…

11th January 2012 15:43

One Direction was amazing Niall definitely waved at me and Rebecca reckons Liam waved at us. the support acts were good too. Been an eventful few days: I am now an able seaman in CCF; I got my lollipops and beret. Lost friends, gained friends, got my other friends and got embarrassed because Tara got Lewis and dragged him to me and Becca told us to speak. The conversation didn’t get very far but I wish I could speak to him! I am now 5ft 4 and weigh 9st 9.

Note: If you are a friend do not force someone to speak to their crush. Also, the One Direction concert I went to was filmed for their first concert DVD and you could not see where we were sat, so they probably were not waving at us in particular…

1st January 2012 23:07

Completed Vampire Diaries book in a day and a bit. New years eve party was good. Charlotte called a boy Ben and it wasn’t Ben. I got wished a happy new year by 5 people I didn’t even know which included a pinky finger?! and I was made to promise to try hard at school and got called an alcoholic! I only had 2 WKDs and half a glass of raspberry vodka. Better not tell dad that though! nly 2 full days and 1 sleep til 1D!!! I absolutely can’t wait. Stuck with homework tomorrow though and I have forgotten everything I’ve learnt 😦