13th August 2012 22:50

Went up to great grandma’s for her birthday then came back and stayed 2 nights with dad. Of course mum kicked off. She doesn’t know Natalie! To be honest though if the only way I get to see Katie is by lying to mum, I don’t care. It’s not fair that I’m in the crossroads. I have a right to stay with dad and see Katie. I miss her so much! I cried when I left. She grows up so fast and it’s sad that I don’t get to watch her. Nik saw the thing I did and so did dad so I need to be more careful. Also I found out something 2 days ago. It’s hard to explain but basically if dad doesn’t sign over the house in 11 months we will be forced to sell the house and give dad and Toni a share and we’ll be homeless. I don’t know what to do. I feel so helpless and every time I think about it I cry. I love this house. It’s been my home since I was a baby and I know his sounds stupid but my heart would break if I had to leave. I hate being where I am now. Someone help me! I just want someone to say it’ll be ok, but not even mum can do that now.

Note: “The thing I did” refers to cutting myself. It’s a very difficult thing to explain to your family so instead I tried to hide it. I know how hard it is to open up to people but I really don’t recommend trying to keep it to yourself. I needed help but didn’t know how to ask for it, even though I have such a supportive family, I found myself feeling completely alone.